Blahhhhhhh

Man oh man, can parents bring you down with a quickness or what?!?! I love my parents to death, after all they did give me life and supported me for the first 18 years of my life (and still do on occasion). But when it comes to dreaming big, pursuing out of the ordinary goals, or just pushing the norm in general, they are not with it.

In the case of my dreams of pursuing acting and moving to LA, they make me feel like an idiot for even fathoming it. They have already told me I'll be wasting my time ... they basically told me that I am going to be broke and selling myself on the corner .... they have absolutely no faith in me whatsoever.

Now I'm all for proving people wrong and shutting up the Naysayers .... but ... when its your parents, it definitely weighs on you a little (a lot) more.

On the one hand, it pisses me off that my own parents think that I would fail so miserably. They are supposed to be the ones that have faith in me, that support me, that push me to my full potential.
On the other hand, my parents came from a super small, super country town in west Arkansas. Coming to Fayetteville and being able to get a college education and live comfortably was achieving the dream for them. They want me to play it safe and stick around Arkansas and live "comfortably" like them....yeah, not happening. Fayetteville is a beautiful place, and a great place to raise a family ... but I'm not planning on having a family any time soon (if at all), and it's not like Fayetteville is going anywhere. I can always come back.

Ugh, anyway ... I just had to vent. My feelings are hurt beyond belief. I'll get over it and keep moving forward and it definitely won't stop me from pursuing everything that I want to do. But if I have kids, I will never deter them from their dreams. I want them to reach and exceed their potential, even if it's in a bunch of different things.

‎"You have to find something that you love enough to be able to take risks, jump over the hurdles and break through the brick walls that are always going to be placed in front of you. If you don't have that kind of feeling for what it is you are doing, you'll stop at the first giant hurdle." ~George Lucas